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Hey, apa kabarmu jauh disana? Jadi sebenernya dari kemaren juga udah inget kalo sekitar tanggal ini kamu pergi, turns out it is today. Ga kerasa banget udah setaun Sap... I'm not actually sure mau nulis apa disini sih.. Is this normal? It's been a year and I still miss you everyday, not like every moment but at random times I do. I think I've never lost anyone this close before, that's why... I guess, I'm still sad when I realize that you're not around anymore. I still have this huge lump in my throat whenever I think of you. I wish we spent more times together, why didn't we? Oh well... Btw, I'm sure you know it already, but I just have to brag about it too to you. I was so proud when I saw the AJ+ video covering XXLab. I remember the last time I went to Jogja (when I still worked in Bandung), we met up and Mba Ratna was in Paris for an exhibition about this. Now this is getting bigger and I'm sure you must be really proud about...

Tapi salah ukuran... m(_ _")m Jadi untuk piknik ulangtaun besok ke Bangkok, dan piknik di bulan Mei ke Jepang, aku cari sepatu... dan aku sudah memutuskan untuk beli Adidas Superstar Slip-on yang menurut review enak banget dipake. Belinya di berrybenka, yang pas aku buka pas banget lagi ada diskon 20% all item. Dan aku pun pilih size 5 akan 235mm yang mana biasanya size aku emang itu kan.. Besoknya, aku ke amplas, trus iseng mampir ke counter adidas, ternyata disitu juga ada... tapi size 4, begitu aku cobain.. pas banget! Kyaaak... aku pun memutuskan untuk yaah.. yaudah deh besok pas dateng si size 5 aku retur aja sama size 4. Ternyata, pas si size 5 dateng, as expected dia kegedean... bad news is... yang size 4 ga adaaa T^T why... jd aku memutuskan buat tuker sama yang size 4.5... ga beda-beda jauh, harusnya muat lah yah... Nunggu seminggu lagi sampe si 4.5 ini dateng... ternyata pas dicobain tetep kegedean T^T... aslinya sih mungkin kalau aku ga tau betapa pa...

This post is long overdue, I know... but everytime I think of writing this, I'm afraid I'd cry... But then again, what's wrong with crying, eh? Anyway, Dear Sapi, I'm so sorry... I'm so sorry that we didn't get to play a lot anymore after you fell ill. I remember planned with Shinta to visit you sometime soon because we saw that you were looking healthier (you updated your path after a looooong time), but it never actually happened. When we did, you were already unconscious I wasn't sure you knew we were there, but maybe oh maybe, you did? I remember crying when I met Mba Ratna and the first thing she said to me was you were looking for me lately because her sister is going to Seoul and you told her to ask me about Seoul. I'm so sorry I didn't know this, I'm so sorry we didn't hang out as often as we did when you were all healthy, I feel like such a bad friend. I am so sorry... As I'm writing this, I feel like...

Lol, judul macam apa ini... Tapi beneran deh Sap, aku baru nyadar kemaren, jadi ada mas2 produser korea gitu, namanya Dean. Nanet yang suka banget sama si mas ini, I know nothing about him, tapi you know lah yah Nanet... aku jadi notice si mas ini dan tiba-tiba kemaren menyadari sesuatu... Kok mirip Sapi??? Apanya yang mirip aku juga ga ngerti, tapi bentuk2annya mirip, padahal perasaan kan kamu ga ganteng yah? LOL *dibalang sepatu* ekekekek...  Anyway, masnya ini... mmm... sebenernya aku ga begitu tau.. bentar aku googling dulu.. tapi seingetku dia producer, dan mmm.. stylenya mirip-mirip juga ya sama kamu? I think you'll love hanging out with him (yaiyalah artis lolololol...) I mean it seems you guys can talk about music and fashion and creative stuff like that gitu lah.. nampaknya akan nyambung... dan mukanya mirip juga #tetep Menurut wikipedia sih doi producer, singer-songwriter *abis googling*. Sebenernya sih ini postingan ga penting banget, ya cuman mau ...

Like I've said before, Sapi is a shoes-freak. Dia punya kontak segala macam toko sepatu di ig, kaskus, fb, dll you name it.. well who am I kidding, dia juga ikutan komunitas (or maybe one of the creator? I'm not actually sure) 3foil.id trus juga bikin tempat buat custom sepatu, jd yaaa.. reputasinya sebagai ahli sepatu di mata saya sudah tidak terbantahkan kkk.. Tiap aku mampir ke rumahnya pasti dia lagi buka page seputar sepatu (dan aku ke rumahnya pretty often like at least once a week). Dan tiap dia buka page sepatu pasti ada aja sepatu yang dia rayu aku buat beli.. apalagi dia tau aku naksir adidas gazelle banget tapi ga nemu2 yang warna, harga, dan ukurannya cocok sama aku...(sampe sekarang). Tapi karena doi pantang menyerah, ya tetep aja tiap kesana aku ditunjukin sepatu2 unyu yang menggoda imanku.. untungnya jaman segitu aku masih mahasiswa S2 yang kegiatan sehari-harinya cuman ngerjain thesis yang ga punya penghasilan dari mana mana.. jadi ya ga beli.. da p...

Don’t go Don’t say you’re gonna leave me Don’t leave me behind in the memories Dear Sapi, AAAAAAAAAAAAKKKK... 2NE1 BUBAAARRRR!!! HUHUHUHUHUHU.. aku kudu piyeee... oh dunia k-pop yang semakin tak kumengerti T^T (padahal dari dulu juga ngertinya segitu2 aja..) Sapi sama saya paling sering nongkrong buat fangirling over YG artist, dan tentunya salah satunya adalah 2ne1. Bias aku adalah dhek CL yang kharismatik nan seksi, sementara Sapi had this HUUUGEEE crush for Mbak Dara, yang selalu nampak unyu uwuwuw dimanapun dia berada. Biasanya aku ke rumahnya, dia lagi either buka facebook tukang jualan sepatu (karena dia adalah shoe-addict, sepatunya banyak banget meeen..) atau ngulik lagunya anak YG (karena doi dj yang suka ngutak atik bikin remix gt), atau makan (yang kemudian aku minta), atau dll banyak banget lol... anyway, intinya kami sama-sama suka YG, jadi beberapa kali kita nonton konsernya artis YG bareng (di yutup) dan ngomen sepanjang jalan (yang kalo jaman sekara...

Sapi is a dear close friend of mine, he passed away last year in the young age of 26.. Sometimes, I miss him, other times... I miss him so much. I really love how we're literally on a platonic relationship, like not even a second have we ever thought of any feelings more than being friend. That's pretty cool, I think. Hehe... Anyway, he was my friend's ex. We were introduced when they were still in a relationship (like of course), but then when they broke up, we've been close friends already, so well... we continue being friends (and mind you, my friend doesn't mind ^^). Terus kenapa nulisnya jadi make bahasa Inggris ya? Err... Anyway, aku pengen nulis lagi, dan honestly, aku sering banget lupa kalo Sapi is no longer around. Jadi kadang kalo pas lagi di jalan sering banget kepikiran hal-hal yang terjadi trus kayak pengen share ke Sapi gitu.. karena emang kita adalah pertemanan yang cerewet banget, lol. Isinya kalo kita lagi main adalah ngemeng, ...